I realize this, over time. Its different back home, if I did not fight him... he'd take over everything he'd oppress the Autobots, enslave the Minicons... Primus knows what he'd do to organic life.
Here I have... freedom in a sense. I know I can avoid Antlers. But Skybound is a different beast. I'm scared, what I am if I have no one to fight. Will I turn out like them without my Matrix to control and regulate myself... I'm scared, Riptide.
I am not innocent, I am not as kind or wise as I know I can be... I am so scared of saying no to them and what that means when I do [ The words are calm, but if Riptide could see the Prime, he'd know he was hiding in a corner of his room. Wishing he was not a monster ] This is too much... Perhaps I should stop speaking for the moment. It must be upsetting to hear.
[quite the opposite. riptide wonders if he will ever be lucky enough to have a problem he can just avoid.]
I just-- I don't get it. He is literally trying to end the universe right now. I think he would probably gut you for fun. You're nothing to him. No-one is anything to him. That's kind of the point.
The worst reason I can give... is I might not be so different. And that knowledge is the most terrifying admittance I can voice.
[ The prime's voice nearly cracks. ]
I am addicted to this. I do not want to be, I want to be free.. Riptide, I ... care for you, I want to stay by your side. Riptide why does love in either direction feel like I'm being torn asunder... How does one manage these emotions. [ Optimus laughs. ]
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Here I have... freedom in a sense. I know I can avoid Antlers. But Skybound is a different beast. I'm scared, what I am if I have no one to fight. Will I turn out like them without my Matrix to control and regulate myself... I'm scared, Riptide.
I am not innocent, I am not as kind or wise as I know I can be... I am so scared of saying no to them and what that means when I do [ The words are calm, but if Riptide could see the Prime, he'd know he was hiding in a corner of his room. Wishing he was not a monster ] This is too much... Perhaps I should stop speaking for the moment. It must be upsetting to hear.
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[quite the opposite. riptide wonders if he will ever be lucky enough to have a problem he can just avoid.]
I just-- I don't get it. He is literally trying to end the universe right now. I think he would probably gut you for fun. You're nothing to him. No-one is anything to him. That's kind of the point.
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[ The prime's voice nearly cracks. ]
I am addicted to this. I do not want to be, I want to be free.. Riptide, I ... care for you, I want to stay by your side. Riptide why does love in either direction feel like I'm being torn asunder... How does one manage these emotions. [ Optimus laughs. ]
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I do not want to chase you away.
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What... are you going to do about any of this?
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I am sorry for how I hurt you. I am happy to hear your voice again.
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...Can I, uh, stay at yours tonight? I'd like your company.
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